Flatsound - Learning to Hate You as a Self Defense Mechanism download song

anyone else hear "if we could just pretend" in the background before the phone call.

I think I am in love with you

Within the deepest depths of hurt what else was I supposed to do?

this is the most beautiful song i have heard in years.

i didnt get to say goodbye. i love you. rest in peace

"you were always a shitty friend, you would leave when i got sick."my heart aches at the fact that my mind finds immediate relation to these words.

This reminds me of my abusive best friend in high school. It hurt so much when they cut me off, what they said to me, seeing them around at school. Months later when they wanted to guilt me into being friends with them again because I didnt beg for them to talk to me that time, it hurt all over again saying no.Years later it makes me sick to remember what they said, did, how they treated me and I am so glad I didnt let them back in. I never learned to hate them, though. Maybe I was too used to being treated that way by my mum all my life. I still miss them and knowing that makes me feel even more sick than the memories.

i got dumped because he found out i have depression and said he couldn’t do anything to make me feel better. attempted to kill myself a dozen times now but kept thinking if he comes back to me i’d feel better. asked him for a second chance to prove myself that depression will not change the way i love him. got rejected again. recently i found out that he has a new girlfriend (a month after our break-up). i don’t know what to feel anymore. i guess this is goodbye, talking into the void because my parents hate me for being suicidal. my life is pathetic.

i think of my dad who denies that my anxiety exists even though I don’t talk at school and come home crying sometimes. “was it my faultbecause, I easily confused you for someone who would hold my hand”

... i would never want you to , stop your life but when i saw you both , with your shoulders touching sitting so close ...

I wanna call you today, on your birthday, but I won’t. I’ll hold on to this hate, because you found somebody else and left me here, all alone

The title of this song fits incredibly well in my life for some time now. Thanks again for you music :)

You don’t talk to me bc she put shit in your fragile little head even tho I was there for you when you were at your lowest, I fixed you when you were not eating, when you’d get stomach aches so bad because you were so broken, you became so angry for no reason, you turned me into you. Now you’re happy with her, your new girl, she reminds me of myself. A pleasant little dreamer, a good girl, but a condescending girl. You’ll control her too, cut her friends out of her life, and maybe she will break your heart, but just know. When you come begging for me like I begged for you, you’ll know the pain I felt. How dying would seem like the better option, the pain in your chest unbearable. I hope you understand the desperation, and the loss. I hate you for doing this to me, but I’ll be okay. You taught me a painful lesson I needed to learn, and I hope you get your lesson soon. Here’s to 9 months wasted out of my life, and better months to come